QUINIX Sport News: ‘The Traitors taught me the biggest life lesson’

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• The Traitors star Livi has shared her experiences of behind the scenes of the BBC show with Yahoo.

• The 26-year-old beautician and model removed her prosthetic eye while filming the bedroom scenes in the castle for The Traitors.

• Aged 14, she had chemotherapy and her eye removed but she now says she owes a lot to the Childhood Eye Cancer Trust.

• Here is everything she learned about taking part in The Traitors, which is hosted by Claudia Winkleman, and why she wants Freddie to win.

The Traitors taught me to just enjoy every moment; to know that exciting, fun things that happen in your life aren’t gonna be constant and these things can just be over just like that.

My time in the show, as much as I was ready to go, it went so quick, so [it taught me to] just to really embrace and take everything in.

Even the scenery in Scotland, I just wanted to go out and have one more time there to just look at our surroundings and I feel like I took that for granted. I was so in this game and really we’re in such a beautiful environment and I should have just appreciated that more.

Also just realise it is a game, and try not to get too in my head, and the thing is we have to play the game so it is gonna be tough. It’s a murder mystery.

You can’t just go in there and think, ‘Oh, I’m not gonna play the game actually because I just don’t want to accuse anybody.’ So I was gonna accuse people, we all got it wrong, but maybe just to take a step back and think, ‘you know what, it’s not that serious, enjoy the ride.’

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When I was younger and I had my eye removed, obviously I spent 14 years living with two eyes, so it was a massive change for me. As a teenager trying to find myself and then I’ve had one of my main organs taken from my body which was life changing for me and I didn’t look the same.

I didn’t feel the same. When I wear my prosthetic eye, I know people can see that I’ve got a lazy eye, or I feel like that as well. Not that there’s anything wrong with the lazy eye, but for my self-confidence, I thought, I want people to know I’ve got a prosthetic eye and get an everyday feel of what I look like beneath this prosthetic eye.

I don’t sleep with it in, I wash it every day. My child sees it, my partner sees it and I think I almost feel like I’m hiding behind this mask trying to almost be normal — whatever normal is.

Everybody’s uniquely themselves and I felt, why am I trying to fit in? Why can’t I express my differences? When I’m not wearing my prosthetic, I almost feel this type of empowerment.

And I feel like I can look around freely and people won’t wonder, ‘Oh what’s wrong with that eye?’ But most of all it is to give to give awareness for children with prosthetic eyes.

When I had my eye removed, the last thing I thought was I’m gonna be a model when I’m older. I’m gonna be on a TV show when I’m older and I’m gonna be doing all these wonderful things. Actually I want them to know that this isn’t gonna hold you back.

I felt like it’s gonna hold me back from everything but it’s pushed me to do all these wonderful things and to put myself out there. I hope that I can be a role model for these children so that one day when they do get older, they don’t need to worry and that they do almost feel normal with everybody else and they can be authentically themselves.

With Freddie, people don’t realise how much I actually love him. I think he’s such an amazing person and I told him this numerous times in the castle and he knows that. We hugged after and there’s really no bad blood, we knew we were in a game.

Finding out he wasn’t a Traitor was absolutely shocking because again there were so many more little suspicions that I had from the get-go that are just not shown and because there’s other exciting things going on in the castle, so you can’t expect everything to be shown from what you experience.

I was just gutted, but I thought, I’m glad I’ve been murdered because if anything can happen right now — and I hope that nobody is onto Freddie.

I almost felt like I had a Traitors murdering me, it gave him a bit of a free pass there because it would have been too obvious after my suspicions in front of everyone.

In the Traitors, we need to remember when you have these suspicions you have to tell that person in front of other people and make it really clear because once you suspect somebody — you are instantly at risk of murder.

I really hope Freddie wins. I love everybody but Freddie did go through such a time and he deserves a good break.

You do love everyone playing the game because you’re spending every day, all day with them. It feels like almost you’ve spent like 6 months together because you’re not getting away from anybody.

They become your family and you almost feel like you are comfortable to feel these emotional moments and express yourself to these people because they basically are your family in there.

It was difficult at times, it definitely was — not to mention that we had so many funny moments in that castle, so many lovely moments and we all really care for one another. We stay in contact daily. It’s been an amazing ride, not only in the castle, but actually after the castle. It’s been incredible.

The Traitors streams on BBC iPlayer.